Subject: Unforgivable Sinner (1/1) Date: Thu, 26 Oct 2000 00:56:31 CEST From: Simone Nicole Dornecker To: FKFIC-L@LISTS.PSU.EDU I forgot to give my permission to archive my story "Unforgivable Sinner". So I want to do it now. "Unforgivable Sinner" can be archived at the FK FTP site and at Fkfanfic.com Sorry Simone Disclaimers: The song "Unforgivable Sinner" is from Lene Marlin, which I happen to like a lot. Forever Night belongs to TBTB... yadda yadda yadda. Warning: Not beta-read. Foreign language (well at least for me), LK-Fic While working on a different fanfic, I heard that song in the radio. It is perfect for a angsty Nick-story and I found I couldn't concentrate on my other story until I had written it down. So here it is. Feedback is enjoyed at Flames will be used to annoy LaCroix. Unforgivable Sinner by Simone Dornecker She caressed his face, unafraid of his golden eyes and the white, gleaming fangs. 'Remember: I trust you' Her words echoed through his mind. With a small yelp he awoke to find himself sitting on a rather uncomfortable plastic chair, located in the waiting room of the hospital. Which day was it? He didn't know, he didn't care, he just hopped she would awake. Kinda lose your sense of time 'Cause the days don't matter no more All the feelings that you hide Gonna tear you up inside You hope she knows you tried Nick wiped his forehead and his hand came away with a layer of red moisture. He didn't wondered about it, he always sweated blood when he was having nightmares. This was a nightmare, his nightmare. And it was all his fault. How he wished for her to wake up. Follows you around all day And you wake up soaking wet 'Cause between this world and eternity There is a face you hope to see For the last several days he had sat here, waiting. Nobody questioned him being here, nobody suspected that it was he who had attacked her. After he and Natalie had tried Janette's cure, Natalie had fallen into a deep coma. A coma induced by heavy bloodloss. His fault. He hadn't noticed the faint heartbeat, hadn't seen her shallow breaths. Only after LaCroix had left him, disgusted with his plea for death, did he notice that Natalie was still alive. Barely. It looked like her mind was gone from her body, like she would sleep forever. And maybe she would. Her mind soaring with the angels in the realm that would be denied to him. Forever. You know where you've sent her You sure know where you are You're trying to ease off But you know you won't get far And now she's up there Sings like an angel But you can't hear those words And now she's up there Sings like an angel Unforgivable Sinner He could feel new tears well up inside of him. Tears he had to deny himself to shed. Tears that would traitorous reveal his secret to the mortals around him. Nick sighed. Like that would make any differences by now. He truly was a monster. He just should go out and burn himself in the bright afternoon sun. Yet he couldn't. Not yet anyway. You've been walking around in tears No answers are there to get You won't ever be the same Someone cries and you're to blame 'I trust you.' Her words. Her feelings. She had, indeed, trusted him and where had her trust led her? To the hospital, her body caught in a coma. She might would never wake again. Struggling with a fight inside Sorrow you'll defeat The picture you see it won't disappear Not unpleasant dreams or her voice you hear Hunger tore at him, but he ignored it. He would not feed here. He would not take from those innocent. The burning pain was only a small penance for his sins. It wasn't enough. Whatever he would do, whatever he would try, nothing would be enough to atone for the horrible things he had done to Natalie. You know where you've sent her You sure know where you are You're trying to ease off But you know you won't get far And now she's up there Sings like an angel But you can't hear those words And now she's up there Sings like an angel Unforgivable Sinner He stood up and walked into her room. It was his time to visit her now. The nurses had gotten used to him, and had drawn the curtains tightly against the searing rays of the sun. Nick eyed them, lost in thought. He could open them, right here, right now, and all would come to an end. Only a mysterious pile of ashes would remain. He looked towards the prone figure in the bed. She looked so frail. Small and helpless. Even if her mind was gone forever, he couldn't met the sun right now. Her body still lived and he would guard it for the rest of her, and of his life. Maybe one time lost But now you're found Stand right up before You hit the ground Maybe one time lost But now you're found Stand right up before You hit the ground - hit the ground Nick reached out to her, his cold hand softly stroking her check. His fingers shook lightly, when her skin warmed his dead flesh. Even in coma she was more alive than he was. And despite all the things that had happened, he still loved her, he still hoped she would wake up, he hoped she might find a small place for him in her life. Nick lightly traced the outlines of her lips with his index finger and then he kissed her. You know where you've sent her You sure know where you are You're trying to ease off But you know you won't get far And now she's up there Sings like an angel But you can't hear those words And now she's up there Sings like an angel Unforgivable Sinner Natalie opened her eyes. ***finis*** _________________________________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free E-mail from MSN Hotmail at http://www.hotmail.com. Share information about yourself, create your own public profile at http://profiles.msn.com.