Subject: I Don't Know What It Is... (1/1)
Date: Thu, 25 Sep 2003 13:35:24 -0700
From: April French <daomir_darkfell@YAHOO.COM>
To: FKFIC-L@LISTS.PSU.EDU

I Don't Know What It Is...--a Forever Knight story
By April French

Author's Note

Another story in the Bat Out of Hell series. Song is
the first half of "I Don't Know What It Is, But It
Just Won't Quit," by Meatloaf. Praise, comments, yadda
yadda, send 'em over. Flames? No thanks. This story
will be archived at my site
http://www.geocities.com/runeshard/fkficindex.html
with all the others in this series. Permission to
archive is given to the FTP site. Anyone else wishing
to archive must first bribe me with copies of Fantasia
on DVD.

~~~

I Don't Know What It Is... (1/1)

Toronto, 1990

He had known, since the night she had heard his story,
that Natalie Lambert was special. She had captured his
attention, after all, just as he had enflamed her
curiosity.

He had no reason to trust her except for own solemn
promise that she would not betray him. That Nick
believed her was, he admitted in a rare moment of
self-awareness, more a testament to his gullible
nature than it was proof of Natalie's sincerity.

But something had to be done, Nick knew. He had to try
again. Even if he never succeeded, just that act of
trying to become mortal, of trying to atone, gave his
troubled heart a little comfort.

Nick had to try. His days were becoming more and more
restless with dark, frightening dreams.

And I never really sleep anymore
And I always get those dangerous dreams
And I never get a minute of peace

Whenever that happened, Nick told himself that his
conscience was pricking him, that he was in danger of
lapsing back into his old ways.

And I've gotta wonder what it means
And I've gotta wonder what it means

But he didn't really know for certain.

Maybe it's nothing and I'm under the weather
Maybe it's just one of those bugs goin' round
Maybe I'm under a spell and it's magic
Maybe there's a witch doctor with an office in town

He only hoped that his new job in Metro Homicide, and
his work with Natalie, would help.

Is this a blessing? Or is it a curse?
Will it get any better? Can it get any worse?

"Incessant torment," Nick muttered, staring into the
flat, ruby depths of his glass. "It has to end."

Will it go on forever? Is it over tonight?
Does it come with the darkness?
Does it go with the light?

"I will pay any price."

Is it richer than diamonds?
Or just a little cheaper than spit?

To destroy the Beast, to take the stopper out of
Death, perhaps even be able to someday, one day, to
fall in love.

I don't know what it is
But it just won't quit

And to stop the unrest that plagued him.

I don't know what it is
But it just won't quit

"Any price," Nick vowed.

~Finis--September 25th, 2003~

April French daomir_darkfell@yahoo.com

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"The Devil and I had a chat this morning..." -- Charles Baudelaire

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